I've got most of the schedule planned in my head i just need to write it down.
Tomorrow i'm going to be at dads for the day until mom picks me up as usual.
Maybe i so do some training, it's been awhile, nothing that's too hard or sweaty because it gets too much... I'll look it up soon.
So no school this week & i have no idea what to do except play Sims. But i think mom & i are going to this store that sells a pretty cheap double bed that i want, so we're probably going to check it out soon.
My scars/cuts itches like hell but it hurts to scratch too hard, god i want to cut right now. Gah.
I hope i won't gain even more weight until next time because if i give up, i will be fat anyway whatever i do there's fat everywhere. It's harder then i thought of getting "clean" or whatever, i just don't know what to do instead. i've read some things a long time ago but i just can't see it helping.
I don't know if mom will wake me up before she leaves & if she would how should i do with breakfast? I know that i'm gonna skip it if i can but what about later, what if i get cravings..?
I could drink but that will just make me feel blown up... Chew gum maybe but it doesn't work so good for me. I think something out when i'll write my food schedule.
I think i'm going to shower soon, i need some distraction, anything because i know there's a few knifes in the kitchen.