When i'm about to go get my checkup ( Weight ) i have the worst mode, it doesn't matter if i lose weight i still feel like failure because my weight isn't low enough, i've had lower.
The only good feeling is that i'm relived.
I have been thinking of my cravings & how to handle them, i really don't want to eat anything
un-healthy so i guess my next option is make my own healthy dessert... But i don't know what... & i'm scared i will lose control & eat everything... My other option is eating a lot of apples or other fruits.
A big dilemma for me, i will figure this out, maybe i can buy a lot of light sodas but it's not the same thing, it's fluid...
I'm half laying half sitting in bed & i'm freezing, i couldn't find my long sleeved shirt...
& oh my god today i noticed that there were red spots on my white sheets on my bed...
I hope she won't ask, It's not much but you know it's blood...
I decided what i'm going to make for dad, No-bake vegan Twix bars.
I can link the recipe so yeah, no sugar or butter & only one tablespoon coconut flour.
Mom & i took a night walk for about half an hour. It was nice & our older cat followed the whole way.
Song: Linkin Park – The Messenger. Great song & band, I love them.
I wish i could find an sharper blade for my scarred wrists.